future

A friend of mine said to me that women spend their whole lives thinking about the future, until they have children, while men start thinking about the future after they have children. I wonder if that is true. I have been feeling like I am so close to my future, like it is so near I can feel it. But what is future? in my definition it means that this is when you will make big decisions that will set course for the rest of your life. The future I think I am near is the future where I actually have no more other options, a future where I will look around and say : well this is it.

I know I am young, people have been rubbing it in my face the whole day. BUt what is age but just numbers.No one can measure someones knowledge or wisdom, or heart, just by their age.  The future is knocking, it feels so real this time. Every decision, every stupid thing everything will directly affect my life from now on. I am not a kid anymore, I am no longer allowed to make mistakes. I have no longer anyone to take responsibility for my actions. I have to start admiting that. Why is  it so damn difficult to get up on your own feet, and finally start living the live you want.

The future is waiting, I can feel it, I can taste it. the question is, am I ready?